SOŇA SIEPAKOVÁ

The burnt-out translator transformed into an esoteric singer-songwriter

…and rediscovered joy

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Blocked Creativity

You might not think so when you look at my drawings, songs, novel, online courses, or when you see me reading tarot cards…
But for most of my life, I didn’t create anything. I wasn’t used to expressing what was inside me. I just listened to other people and was afraid that if I made a mistake, if I didn’t correctly guess what they actually wanted from me, I would be punished.
In my professional life, this manifested itself in the fact that after school, I didn’t have the courage to work as a translator on my own, for example for foreign clients. I could have had my own house long ago, just like one of my friends.
For many years, I preferred to hide behind agencies. Little money and an endless influx of work, especially on weekends. Constant blind anxiety that if I didn’t take a job I no longer wanted, I would upset the coordinators and they wouldn’t give me anything next time.
Personal development and various therapies that I started in 2011 gradually opened up my creative expression. First, I started writing poems. They just jumped out of me and I was very surprised where they came from. I learned to regulate their arrival. I explored whether and how the “muse” could be summoned.

Professionally, I switched from translations to teaching English. I became independent, built my first website, and learned marketing. Occasionally, I read tarot cards for acquaintances. The information that came to me for them seemed like my own thoughts and ideas, so I was initially surprised at how people reacted. “How do you know that? You know her!” That was a nice trigger for my fear of punishment when “I make a mistake and upset someone”.
If I didn’t want to be silent forever, as my defense mechanisms commanded, I needed courage. To express myself calmly, lovingly, and confidently, regardless of other people’s reactions. I trained my concentration and the transmission of increasingly understandable messages. (By the way, I’m still working on that. 🙂

In 2018-2020, I tried to write a simple novel that I illustrated myself. Then came the musical setting of poems in the form of the first primitive songs. I haven’t finished the novel yet. 🙂 But maybe soon I will not only finish it, but also rework it into some kind of textbook for playful self-development and healing singing.
However, I still had a problem with my voice, which led me into the deepest depressions. At the slightest stress, it would close, skip, and in front of people I could only manage a few quiet, “dirty”, very limited range tones. It wasn’t until the end of 2023 that the great singer Kaczi gave me the courage and the right techniques. In the end, I was able to sing a few songs in front of strangers at several of my own concerts in the summer of 2024.

Interested in learning more about me and my inspirations?

Discover my story, my values, and my creative process in this playlist.

And what about the energy?

The First Time I Encountered the Impact of “Energy” on My Health
Around 2011, a nutritional therapist recommended that I measure my urine pH daily. I was always too acidic, regardless of diet, exercise, and supplements. But when I curiously bought some magnetic balls from the “Grandpa Herbalist” e-shop, my pH was neutral whenever I wore them. I couldn’t wrap my head around it. I realized that the cause of my weight gain was probably stress and started to be interested in healing. Within a few months, I had my first “initiation” into Reiki.

Drunvalo Melchizedek and Amorah Quan Yin
Reiki wasn’t very appealing to me, even though I tried to learn it in two schools. The manuals were either missing or poorly translated into Czech. I didn’t enjoy drawing Asian symbols, and on the other hand, relying solely on intuition when you’re a complete beginner didn’t suit me. I think the first step is to learn a proven procedure, to discover various possibilities and potential limitations. Then you can improvise and find your own way.
The search for a quality “energy instruction manual” led me to the books “The Flower of Life” (and others) by Drunvalo Melchizedek, and the five-part “Pleiades Light Therapy” by Amorah Quan Yin. In 2013, I started dreaming that I had my own “mysterious” school, like they had in ancient Egypt or Atlantis. But what exactly to teach there? And how? I didn’t have a business mindset or the necessary skills. I was still that shy “worker” who was afraid to express myself.

Meditation Audio Courses by Orin and DaBen
At a weekend workshop on family estates in 2017, I discovered special guided meditations by two beings channeled by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer. A little searching on the internet revealed that this couple has hundreds of these courses! And they teach even higher levels of spiritual growth than I had seen with other authors. Even the offer of courses for beginners (on relationships, abundance, joy of life) was incredibly rich. The perfect “school” for me. I wrote to the authors asking if I could translate the “Awakening the Light Body” course, which works with energy, into Czech. And when they gave me their consent, my fate was sealed. 🙂